It was one of the worst sounds I've ever heard, ranking right up there with the time I saw my father's race car wreck. I rushed to the bottom of the stairs, scooping up Everleigh and cradling my Papaw EA (Everleigh's namesake), who was still sliding down. By God's grace alone both Papaw EA and "little EA" are a little bruised and scratched, but have no major injuries. How incredible!!!
While I am still not ready to be thankful that this accident happened in the first place, I can see the glorious beauty of God's grace and protection in it all. And I am ever so thankful for that.
On Monday morning driving out to my parents I had a very uneasy feeling. Thinking it was because of the rain, I began to pray for protection. I specifically prayed for the Lord to put a blanket of protection around Everleigh. He answered. I'm still battling with myself for not securely latching the gate at the top of the stairs. It was unintentional, but it was careless and caused my family trauma and pain.
But what the Lord is showing me I have to face is that no matter what lengths I may go to, I will never be enough to save my daughter - or anyone else.
The honest truth is, I want to be. O God I want to be. I want to be enough. And I don't think I'm alone. Why else would most movies emerge with a valiant hero and the entire comic book industry be built on superheroes saving the day? We identify with these characters, both those who save the day and those who are rescued. We know - deep down- that we need a Hero to save us. And if we're honest, we might admit that sometimes we want to be that hero ourselves. Thankfully, we are not and we never will be.
So the only thing left to do, then, is to trust the One who is.
Only One can save.
Only One can save Everleigh.
Only One can save me.
Only One can save you.
And when we trust Him to save us, truly trust Him, we find more life, hope, joy, peace, comfort, healing, truth than we ever thought possible. When Jesus is the Hero of our story, we have all we need. And the ending is better than any movie Hollywood ever created. We are rescued, redeemed, made whole, satisfied.
I will rejoice that I am not the hero of my daughter's story, or even of my own. I will rejoice that I know the true Hero and that I get to call Him Savior and Friend.There is no greater ending to a story than His.